Saturday, August 02, 2003
shoot today was hekka fun!! okay well..today was my family's annual picnic at the marina..anyone who is remotely related to my family or even knows my family went..there were like..60 people there for lunch and games etc..!! okay..ive been going to this thing for like years..i mean..i remember this from when i was about 4 or 5 cause its so memorable..okay i got there at about 11ish cause my dad and aunts went early..at like..4AM to reserve our usual spot..and my mom brought the cooked lumpia too..so we got there and i slept in the RV but my dad told me to eat cause everyone was there..so i ate..then i played with jayda, jalen, and jaden under the shade..so blah..then i got bored of them and went to fly heather..the butterfly kite..with jackie and maryann for about an hour..we always have a spot near the field..so we were playing there..and running and i looked like a dork..cause im 17..heheh..and yeah..then i got tired and took a 15 min nap in the RV and someone came in and bit me on the butt..it was jackie..she brought jaena and leanna in the RV so we could all play..then jackie left and me and jaena and leanna were in the back of the RV with the big bed and we were eating and talking and playing.and planning strategies to win..then we all went outside to go and play in the park..i took all the kiddies with me cause i was the oldest girl..well..i dunno..but they made me..so we all were playing in the park..and then we came back for the games..it was cool..okay..my and jaena are always partners..and we rule..cause we're the oldest girls who play..and our only real competition was like..maryann and jackie..so the egg toss...jaena sucked and dropped it after like the 3rd toss..i was like..YOU FAILURE!! then we played potatoe sack race..but i couldnt because there was no bag long enough for me...we play games in 3 groups..little kids..teens..and adults..hahah..i couldnt be in any group..so i carried jayda and we ran and pretended to win..then we played tug-o-war..they split me and jaena up and we were like..NNOOO!! so we each had to be captains and pick teams..i picked jackie..jaena picked maryann..and we took all the hella good people..while jaena got the okay people..hahaha..and we kicked butt!! hahaha and we all got a dollar..haha..then we played a rematch against these 4 kids who never go to the picnic but fell like getting their asses whooped! so it was them 4..3 guys and a gurl..all dressed in red..against me and jackie and jaena and maryann..we would have killed them..but my godfather's friend..this white lady..decided she wanted to play too..and she took her fat kids to be on the other side..and we were like..back off..but we had to be nice..so we played with them..and we still kicked their butts..and by this time they''re mad..cause well..me and jaena nacj jackie and maryann and their brothers rule ALL the games..hehehe..so next was the balloon toss..and my and jeana had previously picked a hella small one so we would have a better chance..and it was down to me and jaena and the guy and gurl in red..and they tossed..and it popped on her!! and i wasnt looking and ours pooped after theirs..so we won..HAHAHA..they were HELLA pissed off..haha they were like..shoot..thats not even fair..alls fair when you suck like that!! hahaha..then was the pinata..which i couldnt play cause i had to bring jayda to the bathroom in the RV and then antony called me..he was at church..and i was like..man..jayda in the bathroom..antony on the phone..AND CANDY!! shoot..very difficult decision..so i stayed in the RV and talked on the phone for like 3 min..and i was hellaing YOU SAVAGES SAVE SOME FOR ME!! and like..JACKIE!! GET ME SOME CANDY!! hahaha..so jaena got me some..and like..she was like this is hekka old candy..and put it on the bed..then me and libay were talking and she was hekka talking about the old candy..but i was all..candy is candy..and i ate one..haha..then i regretted it..cause i was like..is it bad that this tastes like sour butterscotch? hahaha..so i spit it out..then we ate hot dogs and played in the park again..and we played hot lava tag..which is great.. then all these kids wanted to play with us..and they didnt know how to play so we gave up..then we missed our raffle..and the next pinata was taking so long that me and jaena pretended to like..take it..so she was like stepping on my hand saying hey christine..tie my shoes..i mean slippers..hahah..and jaena had these ties on her pants and she was like..hey tie my pants..while she pretended to untie the pinata..haha..then we were like shoot..im just giving jaena a piggy back..we're not doing anything!! hahah..then me and jaena decided to go home..i had to drive the truck with the tables in the back..and when we were putting them away there was HELLA spiders and crap and we were like..eeww..then we got home..and watched soul food on TV..then jackie and maryann left to go to the park and play tennis..then i picked them up..libay dropped leanna off at our house..then i bought pizza..and we ate it while watching COPS..and i fed leanna pizza..and then i gave her her bottle and she went to sleep..and i put her down in maryann's room to take a nap..then i took jackie home and came back..and now im watching BUFFY...
Friday, August 01, 2003
okay..uumm..today i had a dentist appt..and i went and i might have to go and get my wisomd teeth taken out like..soon..damnit..and i have whatever stuff..and then i went home..and i picked up my aunt so my other aunt could talk to someone and i picked up the baby leana! she had pigtails on and she was so cute!! then like argh i cant do this anymore..I HATE YOU!! I DID SO MUCH FOR YOU THAT I CANT EVEN LOOK PAST ANYTHING ANYMORE BECAUSE YOURE BLOCKING THE WAY..YOU STILL HAVE SO MUCH POWER AND I HATE IT..GIVE IT UP..LET ME GO..SAY GOODBYE..CAUSE YOU PRACTCALLY DID ANYWAYS..IM NOT WORTH A FIGHT AM I? AND YOU!! I BLAME YOU FOR DESTROYING EVERYTHING! I BLAME YOU FOR ENDING IT!! ITS YOUR FAULT! I BLAME YOU BECAUSE I HAVE BLAMED MYSELF ENOUGH AND I BLAME YOU BECAUSE YOU WERE THE CAUSE..YOU AND HIM..YOU COULDNT GIVE ANYTHING AWAY..YOU COULDNT LET ME HAVE JUST THIS ONE..YOU HAD TO RUIN IT..I WAS ALREADY YOURS..YOU HAD ME..YOU COULD HAVE ASKED FOR ANYTHING..BUT ALL YOU DID WAS PLANT SEEDS OF DOUBT IN MY MIND..WHAT DID I EVER DO??? I DID EVERYTHING FOR YOU..I SACRIFICED HOURS AND HOURS FOR YOU..BUT IT MEANT NOTHNG TO YOU!! I WAS NO ONE..YOU USED ME LIKE I WAS NOTHING..LIKE I MEANT NOTHING..AND DONT ACT LIKE YOURE THE VICTIM..BECAUSE YOU CAUSED AS MUCH AS ANYONE..YOURE NOT THE INNOCENT HERE..EITHER OF YOU..ALL OR NOTHING..JUST GO AWAY!! WHY? WHY MUST YOU DO THIS? AND FINALLY YOU!! HOW CAN YOU NOT ACCEPT ME? I WAS SO NICE I SUCKED UP AND TRIED TO BE NICE ND I WAS..I STOOD UP FOR YOU AND SUPPORTED YOU AGAINST THEM..THEY HATED YOU..THEY STILL DO..AND THAT WASNT GOOD ENOUGH WAS IT? PROBABLY BECAUSE HE NEVER STOOD UP FOR ME..HE NEVER AKNOWLEDGED ME TO YOU HUH? I DIDNT EVEN EXIST..ITS ALL ABUT YOU..SELFISH BITCH..WHY CANT YOU ACCEPT THAT HE DIDNT WANT TO BE YOURS..YOU SHOULD HAVE LET HIM GO..ITS CALLED COMFORTABILITY..GET OVER YOURSELVES..OR I WILL HELP YOU TO DO IT..EXTERIOR IS NOTHING CAUSE YOURE JUST A COLD HEARTED BITCH THAT EVEN WHEN YOU DONT THINK YOU ARE..YOURE HURTING ME..YOU COULDNT LET ME HAVE WHAT LITTLE I HAD!! YOU SELF CENTERED ASSHOLE..NO MATTER HOW MANY FRIENDS YOU HAVE THEY WILL ALL DESERT YOU IN THE END BECAUSE NOT EVERYONE IS STUPID LIKE ME..NOT EVERYONE WANTS TO PUT UP WITH YOUR FAKE ASS ATTIUDE..I DONT CARE HOW MANY OF MY FRIENDS LIKE YOU..I AM TIRED OF FAKING THAT I ACCEPT YOU IF YOU CANT EVEN GIVE ME THE SAME..EVERYONE WILL SOON SEE THE TRUTH LIKE YOUR OTHER 3 FRIENDS DID..WAS THEIR DESERTING YOU A 'GESTURE' OF THEIR FRIENDSHIP? YENNO WHY IM TELLING YOU THIS? BECAUSE I CARE.. SOMETHING YOU OBVIOUSLY NEVER LEARNED..TO BE COMPASSIONATE..I SHOULDNT CARE..SHOULD I?..I HATE YOU ALL NO ONE IS WORTH THIS..NO ONE IS WORTH THIS MUCH SELF DOUBT, TEARS AND PAIN THAT I ENDURE TO MAKE SURE I APPEASE ALL OF YOU..
as i was doing my daily reading on pulmonary diseases (genetic and pathogenic alike i dont discrminate) (is pathogenic the right word? i hope so) i came across this information page on isonizad, an antibiotic given as sort of an anti-tuberculosis medication, and just thought i'd share it with ya'll:
What happens if I overdose on INH?
• Seek emergency medical attention.
• Symptoms of an isoniazid overdose include nausea, vomiting, dizziness, slurring of speech, blurred vision, visual hallucinations, seizures, coma, and death.
(hahahaha if you are dead..i think..i think maybe it could probably mean you could have overdosed..just to let you know..but hey..im no expert!) haha.. i like reading up on stuff like this..especially when they write up obvious stuff..like..if swelling of throat and difficulty breathing persist, stop taking the damn medication..since im never gonna have enough money to go to med school..i pretend i can and pretend im studying..cause all of those other non deserving people out there who get to go to med school and dont even want to..you rich bastards..oh well hahaha quoting from anatomy class "i'd be a crappy doctor..i'd tell some obese gurl she's anorexic..and some anorexic gurl shes chubby and obese..and a bulemic gurl shes fat" HAHAH it wasnt me who said it..it was brian..not me..hahah..whadda guy!
"hell hath no fury like a woman scorned"
this is how i know chelle-bone hates me..heheh..we go through this everytime i want to give her something..this time its candy:
me: whats my name?
chelle: murann..
me: no christine..
chelle: murann..
me: no say christine..
chelle: curstine..
me: yay! okay whats my name..
chelle: murann..
me: ARGH! fine then no candy for you...you dinge!! (like as in dingey..like dirty..i dunno)
^ at this point im heka frustrated^
me: fine..give ate kiss and hug and you can have it okay?
chelle: daynuh (jaena) murann give candy
*and now im just like..bleh! whatever..*
hahah chelle says hey nockka..which is supposed to be naga..but shes not supposed to say it..but she does..and she gets in trouble..hahahaha..so shes funny..oh and kaitlyn..the better older niece that likes me is way cuter..but so is kel-kel..they both have curly hair..but kait's is brown..i havent seen her is hekka days..but shes coming like this weekend to see my aunt..she remembers me..but she whispers my name..cause she didnt remember before..so we whispered it to her and now she whispers it..like thats how its supposed to be said..hehe..cutie..
What happens if I overdose on INH?
• Seek emergency medical attention.
• Symptoms of an isoniazid overdose include nausea, vomiting, dizziness, slurring of speech, blurred vision, visual hallucinations, seizures, coma, and death.
(hahahaha if you are dead..i think..i think maybe it could probably mean you could have overdosed..just to let you know..but hey..im no expert!) haha.. i like reading up on stuff like this..especially when they write up obvious stuff..like..if swelling of throat and difficulty breathing persist, stop taking the damn medication..since im never gonna have enough money to go to med school..i pretend i can and pretend im studying..cause all of those other non deserving people out there who get to go to med school and dont even want to..you rich bastards..oh well hahaha quoting from anatomy class "i'd be a crappy doctor..i'd tell some obese gurl she's anorexic..and some anorexic gurl shes chubby and obese..and a bulemic gurl shes fat" HAHAH it wasnt me who said it..it was brian..not me..hahah..whadda guy!
"hell hath no fury like a woman scorned"
this is how i know chelle-bone hates me..heheh..we go through this everytime i want to give her something..this time its candy:
me: whats my name?
chelle: murann..
me: no christine..
chelle: murann..
me: no say christine..
chelle: curstine..
me: yay! okay whats my name..
chelle: murann..
me: ARGH! fine then no candy for you...you dinge!! (like as in dingey..like dirty..i dunno)
^ at this point im heka frustrated^
me: fine..give ate kiss and hug and you can have it okay?
chelle: daynuh (jaena) murann give candy
*and now im just like..bleh! whatever..*
hahah chelle says hey nockka..which is supposed to be naga..but shes not supposed to say it..but she does..and she gets in trouble..hahahaha..so shes funny..oh and kaitlyn..the better older niece that likes me is way cuter..but so is kel-kel..they both have curly hair..but kait's is brown..i havent seen her is hekka days..but shes coming like this weekend to see my aunt..she remembers me..but she whispers my name..cause she didnt remember before..so we whispered it to her and now she whispers it..like thats how its supposed to be said..hehe..cutie..
"nobody likes me, everybody hates me. think i will go eat worms. big ones, teeny ones, see how hey wiggle and squirm. chop off their heads, squeeze out the juice, throw the tails away. nobody knows how i survive. worms 3 times a day!" hahaha my little sister used to sing that song in kinder school and it was hekka funny..i tried to teach lea..but she just doesnt like me. today..i played with the babies..they came over so i could baby sit.. kinda..i was so tired though..i took a fat nap..and i was trying to put baby #2 to sleep..the one that likes me..and she was sitting hekka weird and just drinking her bottle..and then i was like..haha shes sleepy..so i picked her up and let her sleep while i was carrying her..and then i was trying to go and put her on the couch so i could go change and she kept waking up..so i was like..fine baby..hahaha..and i let her sleep..then i tired to move and she woke up so i tried to put herback to sleep but she wouldnt..so i let her lie down on my tummy while i was lying down..haha..shes so cute..then i was bringing the other one..lea..to pick up maryann cause she wanted to go..but she started crying in the car..so i was like..aaww its okay honey we're almost there..cause she hella likes maryann and i picked her up when she was sleeping..hahaha so she didnt know WHO she was going with..so she was crying etc..then we went home..and later jackie called and was like..what are you doing? whats chelle doing? etc..and i was like you want me to pick you up jackie? and shes like i was just bout to ask that..hehehe..so i picked her up and it started to RAIN!! i was like wth? rain? but its hekka hot! and it reminded me of the philippines..and i got sad..cause i love going to the philippines..i wish i could stay for a longer time..i miss it..then i took the nap while the kids were sitting on the bed with me and watching maury..it was the miracle show..and yeah..so i fell asleep..then we were supposed to play tennis but i was sleepy so they walked there..and i woke up and picked them up..it was like 9 pm..so yeah..then we watched 101 of the most amazing things taken out of the human body..it was hekka gross!! there was like anchor..a piece of wood..a javelin..etc..it was hella gross..and number 1 was like this guy being the host of his dead twin..inside his stomach..it was nasty!! they like took this skeleton type thing out and it was all smashed..and gross..i almost threw up..hahah..it was his parasitic brother fetus..A BABY IN A BABY!! hahaha fresh choice..but yeah...then i watched will and grace..then 3rd rock..etc..and now yeah. tomorrow i have a dentist appointment..at 11..shoot i need to continue working out in the mornings..im obsessed with my weight and my legs and whatever..haha..im sure theres some sort of psychological mumbo jumbo that could explain it..but fuck off cause i dont want to hear it..yeah..dont fuck with me online and think its funny..cause its not..people have tried it before..and the consequenses were harsh..so lets not try that anymore okay? yeah..i dont like it..i hate it..it pisses me off..if i find its you it hurts..then i get irritated..then i get mad..sometimes..i even feel the need to get revenge..then you'll have to suffer the repercussions of what you did..but luckily..im in a forgiving mood..and i guess its karma for me..but yeah..i hope you had fun..
Wednesday, July 30, 2003
hhmm..what did i do today..well..i went to drop maryann off..except i threw a fit before i did..then i went back to sleep..then i picked her up.then i cleaned the house..then i forgot i had to go drop off my sabre..sorry gurls! hehehe..dude..i hekka forgot cause i was hekka cleaning cause my aunt came today..and then i went to go see antony real quick before i went to pick up the food..then i passed krystle..hehehe..yay..then i picked up the food..and jackie..and i cleaned more..then i got hella jewelry from the philippines..i got bracelets..beaded bra straps..(i dunno i guess they're gonna be in soon) and earrings..haha hella *bling*bling* if yenno what i mean..and stuf..and like a cell phone light thingie.. hahah..its all good whatever..and i got like..candy and food and stuf..yenno..stuff..pastillias..etc..the usual..we had a mini party from like..when i got home til like 10..hahah..my cousins rossan..jaena.. jackie..lea..lianna..paulo..libay..maria..her boyfriend art..noel..and my fam..and thats it..oh and my 2 aunties..haha..we saw pictures..etc..and whatever..hhahaha..shoot.. yenno when you take INH youre not supposed take more than one every 24 hours..i hekka keep forgetting so i had to make it up..but sshh.. maybe i told you already..but yeah..id rather not take it for another whole 9 months worht of that crap..hella horse pill..300mg..shoot..hahah..im watching news radio..and beth thinks this guy is in love with her..but she never met him..and shes like..look what i found..cigarettes.."but you dont smoke beth"..yeah i was mad at him for awhile too..but then look what i found..GUM..he's trying to quit..FOR ME!! hahaha..it was hekka funny..cause shes acting like shes met him before.
Tuesday, July 29, 2003
eh..i dont know what im saying..but NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER SAY I 'CONTRADICT MYSELF'..especially to my face..cause i will kick your ass..it bugs me when people say that about me..so just dont..if you know whats good for you and our friendship..just a warning..you get like..1 strike when it comes to this..and thats it..
blah...i watched TV and ate food..what else is there to do? nothing..i gets to go to moreau tomorrow so i can give jan the sabre and she can give me the book..hehehe..it'll be great..woohoo..fun stuff..oh and..my new favorite quote..hoh told it to me..but i already knew it..and plus he messed it up hella..is: of all the words of mouth and pen..the saddest are..what could have been..*sigh* yeah well i think ive wasted enough time on your ass..if whetever is so great..go for it..but fuck whatever shoot..back up..ive wasted a lot of time on you and i frikkin want it back..but you cant give it to me can you? cause you took it and now its gone..and i want all my pain and memories and emotion back..but wait..you cant give that back either..and most importantly..i want my tears back..you had to go and hurt me and whatever..and you pushed me..you made me do it..well not you..i dont like to give people that much credit when it comes to this..but hey..well..who knew..i mean..ive heard of stabbing in the back..but..wow..you take the frikking cake..hahaha
shoot..havent went online in hella days..blah blah..hahaha the other day..well..yesterday..i was having a hella bad day..and i went to go pick up my sister but i wanted to go see antony first..so i called and he wasnt home..and then i was like..nnoo..cause i wanted to see him..and i was hekka crying cause i had no one to talk to..not cause he wasnt home..and i was like..i need a hug so i went to church and i was walking and i was trying not tobe crying so i was wiping my eyes..but then i started crying..and i felt hella stupid cause patrick and paul and his brother were hella looking at me..i was crying and not and talling him and crying out loud..i was a sob story..it was sad..then i drove away crying hysterically cause i had to pick up maryann..then i picked her up and i was a batch to my parents..and i was cleaning the house cause my aunt is coming from the philippines tomorrow..yay..PRESENTS!! dude..i had a hekka crazy dream last night..that like i was driving in a fog at night throught berkely getting lost..then i dreamt we went over a bridge..through my school..dominican..and like..deer and getting lost..i dunno..then throught more fog to 101 south..then across the golden gate bridge in more fog..then through SF..in more fog..then back home..to go and like..i dunno..what happened..but i remember toilet paper..and this freaking annoying honking noise..and like..i dunno..then something about toiletries..and ghosts flying through trees and stuff then running and wind..i dunno it was a weird dream..hahaha..