okay..uumm..today i had a dentist appt..and i went and i might have to go and get my wisomd teeth taken out like..soon..damnit..and i have whatever stuff..and then i went home..and i picked up my aunt so my other aunt could talk to someone and i picked up the baby leana! she had pigtails on and she was so cute!! then like argh i cant do this anymore..I HATE YOU!! I DID SO MUCH FOR YOU THAT I CANT EVEN LOOK PAST ANYTHING ANYMORE BECAUSE YOURE BLOCKING THE WAY..YOU STILL HAVE SO MUCH POWER AND I HATE IT..GIVE IT UP..LET ME GO..SAY GOODBYE..CAUSE YOU PRACTCALLY DID ANYWAYS..IM NOT WORTH A FIGHT AM I? AND YOU!! I BLAME YOU FOR DESTROYING EVERYTHING! I BLAME YOU FOR ENDING IT!! ITS YOUR FAULT! I BLAME YOU BECAUSE I HAVE BLAMED MYSELF ENOUGH AND I BLAME YOU BECAUSE YOU WERE THE CAUSE..YOU AND HIM..YOU COULDNT GIVE ANYTHING AWAY..YOU COULDNT LET ME HAVE JUST THIS ONE..YOU HAD TO RUIN IT..I WAS ALREADY YOURS..YOU HAD ME..YOU COULD HAVE ASKED FOR ANYTHING..BUT ALL YOU DID WAS PLANT SEEDS OF DOUBT IN MY MIND..WHAT DID I EVER DO??? I DID EVERYTHING FOR YOU..I SACRIFICED HOURS AND HOURS FOR YOU..BUT IT MEANT NOTHNG TO YOU!! I WAS NO ONE..YOU USED ME LIKE I WAS NOTHING..LIKE I MEANT NOTHING..AND DONT ACT LIKE YOURE THE VICTIM..BECAUSE YOU CAUSED AS MUCH AS ANYONE..YOURE NOT THE INNOCENT HERE..EITHER OF YOU..ALL OR NOTHING..JUST GO AWAY!! WHY? WHY MUST YOU DO THIS? AND FINALLY YOU!! HOW CAN YOU NOT ACCEPT ME? I WAS SO NICE I SUCKED UP AND TRIED TO BE NICE ND I WAS..I STOOD UP FOR YOU AND SUPPORTED YOU AGAINST THEM..THEY HATED YOU..THEY STILL DO..AND THAT WASNT GOOD ENOUGH WAS IT? PROBABLY BECAUSE HE NEVER STOOD UP FOR ME..HE NEVER AKNOWLEDGED ME TO YOU HUH? I DIDNT EVEN EXIST..ITS ALL ABUT YOU..SELFISH BITCH..WHY CANT YOU ACCEPT THAT HE DIDNT WANT TO BE YOURS..YOU SHOULD HAVE LET HIM GO..ITS CALLED COMFORTABILITY..GET OVER YOURSELVES..OR I WILL HELP YOU TO DO IT..EXTERIOR IS NOTHING CAUSE YOURE JUST A COLD HEARTED BITCH THAT EVEN WHEN YOU DONT THINK YOU ARE..YOURE HURTING ME..YOU COULDNT LET ME HAVE WHAT LITTLE I HAD!! YOU SELF CENTERED ASSHOLE..NO MATTER HOW MANY FRIENDS YOU HAVE THEY WILL ALL DESERT YOU IN THE END BECAUSE NOT EVERYONE IS STUPID LIKE ME..NOT EVERYONE WANTS TO PUT UP WITH YOUR FAKE ASS ATTIUDE..I DONT CARE HOW MANY OF MY FRIENDS LIKE YOU..I AM TIRED OF FAKING THAT I ACCEPT YOU IF YOU CANT EVEN GIVE ME THE SAME..EVERYONE WILL SOON SEE THE TRUTH LIKE YOUR OTHER 3 FRIENDS DID..WAS THEIR DESERTING YOU A 'GESTURE' OF THEIR FRIENDSHIP? YENNO WHY IM TELLING YOU THIS? BECAUSE I CARE.. SOMETHING YOU OBVIOUSLY NEVER LEARNED..TO BE COMPASSIONATE..I SHOULDNT CARE..SHOULD I?..I HATE YOU ALL NO ONE IS WORTH THIS..NO ONE IS WORTH THIS MUCH SELF DOUBT, TEARS AND PAIN THAT I ENDURE TO MAKE SURE I APPEASE ALL OF YOU..