YAY WOOHOO!! this weekend is gonna be great. the one thing that makes me happy..no matter what time, where, when, why, THERE IS NO REASON! i just love it. hopefully..im still..blah! but you know what im talking about. my love..my dreams..my FUN FUN FUN!! more specifically at 10:00-11:00am on sunday i will be having kick ass funnest time of my sad 2 years out of high school. a sleeping portion of my soul will once again be awakened!!! (i'm amazed at how dramatic i am.)

well i was so excited today. i found a new 'place' for me. and new 'home' if you will. no one else can go there, without me knowing, when im there im alright, when i stay there i 'am' again.. kind of like a sacred place that ive not visited for many many months. *sigh* oh to be once again. no one can take this feeling i have away. seriously..i was so happy driving back that i was crying. i was so excited. i sat up in bed today and was like..i want this. and now i get to have it. and now its mine. and no one from this stupid place of worries and stress is allowed to go with me. EVER. that a new rule. no one who cases me stress, no one who makes me mad, no one who makes me cry, no one who i hate, dislike, or cannot stand is allowed with me in this place. it's my secret. and im excited. oh im very excited... cant you tell?

Artist: Allure
so im addicted to my old ALLURE cd. and heres what im listening to now...
Album: Allure
Title: Wanna Get With You

Hmmmmmm
All i wanna do
All i wanna do is sex your body
Get you in the mood
Get you open on the scent for loving
Baby there won't be no rules
We can go all night talking
Talking 'bout the things that we're gonna do
If we just do what we want
Do what we gotta do
I just wanna get with you
Hmm
Oh, sexy baby
Let's turn down all the lights
I just wanna get your body ready
For making good love all night
I just wanna touch your tender body
In places you've never been touched
Baby let me tease you
Baby please you
Oh, make you fall in love
All i wanna do is sex your body
Get you in the mood
Get you open on the scent for loving
Baby there won't be no rules
We can go all night talking
Talking 'bout the things that we're gonna do
If we just do what we want
Do what we gotta do
I just wanna get with you
I'm yearning for your 4-play loving
I'm burning like a fire inside
I'm an addict to a loving i'm receiving
Got me feeling so hot tonight
Make me wanna do things, do things baby
Things i never done before
We can get it on
We can get it on
Word is born
Till the break of dawn
Can you feel
The touch of your body caresses over me
Holding each other so gently
Endlessly can be
Forever and ever and ever
Making love
Lets show it can be so
And be, hold me
All i wanna do is sex your body
We can go all night talking
I just wanna get with you
All i wanna do is sex your body
Get you in the mood
Get you open on the scent for loving
Baby, there won't be no rules
We can go all night talking
Talking 'bout the things that we're gonna do
If we just do what we want
Do what we gotta do
I just wanna get with you
Oh deep in love we'll be
Oh

today was fun..it started out with me waking up at lik 10AM..which was amazlingly refreshing. then i brushed my teeth, hair, and washed my face. i felt nice and clean. i mean i do this stuff everyday, but like, i had more time to take on making myself awake and refreshed.
then i went to micro, which was okay, we just inoculated (sp?) innoculated? inocculated? 2 petri dished with E. coli and S. epi? i dont even remember what they're called. then we looked at our slides from the previous week, which was fun! i cant tell the difference between pink and purple mind you. =)
then we all ate lunch, my microbiology group. which was fun. then to see damien, and he wasnt there..AGAIN!! mothafreaker!! but i'll see him later on today before class. the most boring class EVER. health promotion and maintenance. i like health assessment more than that class..and i HATE health assessment..hahah. so thats saying a lot. then now im in my room..bored..waiting for 2:30 when i can go and see whats his face damien. yeah then off to my shortest class of 2 hours. die die die. i hella wanna skip the class. and be bored..hahah

gosh frikking gosh. i should be asleep. but thats at the end of my day. lets start at the beginning:

-woke up this morning..took a shower
-went to health maintenance, touched boobs..it was..okay..
-had breakfast
-went back to the room and waited the 5 min until my next class
-went to nursing tech and saw george's uh..manhood fall out, and katie pick them up, we had all sorts of funny quotes with this one:
"do you want these back george?"
"i think hes gonna sue.."
"his wife's gonna be hekka mad at you"
"no wonder hes not married.."
"yeah, thats gonna be a problem in the dating world.."
etc..
-then we went back to working on clinical lab stuff on CD rom
-took a nap
-got ready for cheer
-talked to greg
-drama in the cheerness. OMG. fucking..ggrr..
-FUCKING GGGGRRR!!!
shoot me, really? just shoot me cause everytime i try i get left with these feelings of extreme hatred, and its just a fucking vicious cycle. really regina..next time you cry over him...i really dont wanna hear about it.. i honestly dont. cause i really dont like him. and i know saying it in my blog isnt the most mature way to, but whatever. and next time you guys fight,,say in the next..like..apparently you fight every 6 months or something? get over it faster, cause you guys always talk like 2 days later and resolve it. and thats great, it really is. but what about all the people who wanted to kick his ass for you? and were willing to "take care of you" if he wasnt going to? everytime you fight with him i try to defend you and like..i get blamed for all the conversations that you were sitting right next to me laughing about. thanks for letting me take the fall. and then letting him drag my relationship through mud. thanks for that. and not even standing up to him about it? wow. thats hella nice. i like how you can stand up to any one of your friends, saying i dont wanna go out to eat, or i dont wanna go to the parking lottery for you, but you cant stand up to him about your friends. about me! honestly..like i just let it go, but it really gets to me. but i cant do anything, cause youre problem isnt a problem anymore and whatever so all the anger that ive built up against him goes nowhere. all the 'advice' we give you, you say yeah, but you dont use it. its like..dont bother..really...we're just wasting our breath. and like. i completely understand how you are, no one understands how you are more than i would. but i would not allow greg to talk smack about any of my friends relationships like he was better than theirs. and another thing, after like 2 seconds..everythings okay..and hes back to hunnie bunny, when like..half an hour ago you were gonna kick his ass yourself. i just really feel like i get kicked around a lot when i try to help you. and just leave me out of it. like honestly, i dont want to ever talk about your relationship with him, your problems with him, or anything about you and him. cause now..the two of you bother me. you dont bother me individually, but you and him together do, and him alone really bothers me. and im really sorry to say but you know ive felt like this for a long long long long long time. and i know i must sound like a bitch, and i really dont care. cause why should you get to resolve all of your anger, but i dont. so we're gonna prevent me from kicking you ass and his one day by just not talking to me about anything remotely relates to him. for instance..football..real estate..cubans..etc. its just way easier this way. and if im being a bad friend then..then i dunno, cause i think ive dealth with enough problems with you and him, as well as you have dealt with problems about me and greg. i feel really used. and i hate it. so help me not hate you..and just dont talk to me about him. you can talk to your other friends, im sure they understand and care. anything else in the world you want to talk to me about thats fine. but not him. he makes me really mad. and i hate him. im entitled to my opinion, and hes entitled to his about me, which im sure is less than positive. but i really have given up feeling sorry for you in your relationship every 6 months when you fight. everytime i do care..something bad happens...it creates a snowball effect, its the proverbial straw that broke the camel's back. we had the drama around wilson..and we had the whole felianne thing..and ive decided you and your relationship and you problems bring me and others..but especially me..unneccessary drama. and i dont wanna deal with it..

today was fun. im hella sore from the gym yesterday. stupid late people. lets not be late anymore. okay? thanks. anyways...
went to micro today. good an okay grade on the test, not my best, but not my worst as well. then i went back to my room and took a nice nap. then gregory called. i love him. thank goodness we're not fighting. we do not fight that much. contrary to the mighty one. how would he know? anyways...
then i talked to gregory for awhile then went back to sleep. and tried to study for my path test. CRAZY. but yeah didnt end up doing that. then i went to class and yes..im not afraid to say it, that test raped me in the ass. it was HARD. hahah. then me and regina sat outside contemplating why life sucks..especially for nursing majors. hahah. then we talked to our mothers, and we made a haiku for our lover biatch marc!! its awesome. hahaha he'll be eternally grateful we're poetic geniuses. then back for an hour leture on stress, which was really interesting. then back to the room for more sleep..
then we tried to figure out how to work the clinical cd-rom thingie. and it wasnt working, but it did eventually. then i actually took another nap. but i should have been reading. then nicole came over, and we're gonna have an anger night tonight. today was an angry day, but im over it..cause he doesnt matter to me! muwahaha. but yeah. so anyways...
then we went to dinner and back to the room to read for class. nothing else much happened. so sorry my day was kick ass boring..=) but sometimes i like these kinds of days. they relax me..

youre the most beautiful thing ive ever laid eyes on...

hhmm today i was a big lazy ass. i woke up to the sound of my cell phone ringing. it was the love of my life gregory. we talked on his way to school..for about 20 min. i love talking to that kid. he makes me smile. then i went BACK TO SLEEP until about 10:45. then i brought all my books onto my bed and proceeded to go BACK TO SLEEP until like..11ish. then i woke up and ATE FOOD. hahaha like 2 bowls of fruity pebbles. and bbq chips. then i went back to bed. again. i TRIED TO STUDY but it wasnt working. my bad was to comfy. hahah but yeah. then my poor roommate regina and i talked and we started singing i wanna sex you up and i was singing lets talk about sex baby. only cause we know the dance, and the other song was stuck in my head. but poor regina may is having a hard time with her scarry gerry boyfriend, whom i think is being a complete weirdo about the whole situation. i know im biased cause ilike regina may TONS TONS AND MORE TONS more than i have feelings of a positive nature in general to gerry. or shall we say da mity G or a zone buster, or whatnot. hilarious i might add. but hopefully they resolve their issues soon because the poor girl is stressed out as it is! but yeah. we were making strange senarios to make him talk to her like hitchhiking and waiting and getting guns. but yeah. so i love my greg.

im a sucker for his light brown eyes...

relationships are not practical. and i just made a kick ass argument to my love about it. and he agreed. hahah i love him bunches. woot woot. imean dont get me wrong we argue a lot. we did over the summer a lot lot lot. but now we get along really well because we get to talk more and see eachother more and have been through a lot. and we talk and communicate, and i cant resist him. hahaha. he cant resist me either. he makes me eat ice cream mmm..good..BIRTHDAY CAKE REMIX...

woot. so the rest of my weekend waas VERY successful. gregory was late, but it was okay, cause had fun. then in the middle of the night i wanted cereal, so we went to safeway and i ended up getting soup? yeah..then we ate it and watched part of FINAL DESTINATION. which was kinda crazy, i guess, but i was sleepy and decided to just go to bed. so we went to bed, then we woke up at like 5 cause it was raining HELLA hard!!. then after that we woke up finally at 11 am. and we watched TV and got ready to go get food. he had quiznos and i bought cereal and milk. i worked damn hard for that cereal!!! and we got birthday cake remix ice cream at cold stones. damn it was good. he ate most of it, but yenno. haha he's a growing boy. then we went back and i ended up not eating the cereal and eating hella salty chips to balance out the ice cream. then after we ate we took a nap, then watched TV then napped then he left. sad sad sad. i cant bear to tear myself away from that hunka man..HAHAHAHAHAHA whateva. but its sad when he leaves. he brings me joy and happiness and love. and its awesome. but yeah. and he left another jesuit shirt for me to wear while hes gone. and he left his axe..so i could smell it while hes gone. *sigh* he smells so good. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!! but yeah aren't you all jealous? yeah you should be. hahah. and i walked him to his car and he was off.
then i went to mo's then regina came. and mos not supposed to talk..hahah..and we all got hungry and decided to go to jack in the box and get tacos. hahahaha. and we ate in mo's room. and yeah. and we were watching titanic and bitched about the movie. hahaha. it was good times. then what else happened. uh now cody called and im talking to him. hahaha. and yeah...hes confessing his love for me and at the same time how he hates me for being with greg. i'm so evil. but hes JAIL BAIT!!!!!! 17 fool. hahah he'll be 18 in like a month..haha still young..okay..ttyl..