the two words that have been running through my head since i got back home: JET LAG!! omg. ive been sleeping all day..staying up all night, and making my lovely gregory stay up with me cause i cant sleep. its torture. i can't go to sleep on time! it sucks a lot. i stay up all night and take a shower at 6 AM every morning. then sleep around 10ish til like..7 pm. hahaha thats the life.
speaking of life. upon my return i weighed myself, and to my surprise and astonishment i DID NOT GAIN WEIGHT! ggrr. i thought i did, but i didnt. haha the scale there said i gained 10 lbs, i was like..thats impossible..but i checked today and i am back at my normal 119lbs. which i will be happy with i swear. but yeah. here's a list of things i learned in the philippines:
-snorkeling is very difficult if you're taking your cousin who doesnt know how to
-even if you dont see fish, they are there...
-free diving is the most wonderful experience ever, if you havent done it you suck
-people who dont know how to swim are NOT worth my time here in CA
-sea urchins are very pointy, do not, i repeat DO NOT step on or pet them
-its hard to find gifts for people there
-tsunamis suck, especially when you're at the beach that day
-lizards can swim

now a list of things i did in the philippines:
-went free diving
-snorkeling
-went swimming in the wide vast ocean off of a boat with no vest cause i can swim
-got REALLY SICK
-got a cold and sinusitis
-sneezed 473289 times a day
-discovered why i dont speak another language, nor do i understand any of the 3 i should
-slept a lot
-almost finished my simbang gabi (6 days!!! at 4:30 AM)
-went shopping
-got to talk to my lola about life, my family, and stories about everything
-bonded with my cousins
-had a great time
-miss all my friends at home
-missed greg! but thats okay cause i talked to him and texted him and called him and talked to him online =)
-I CUT MY HAIR!!!!!! 3 INCHES BIATCHES!!
-went to 473289 churches where youre not allowed to wear tank tops
-donated lots of clothes, money, and food to an orphanage/missionary in bicol
-spent money
-saw the new 200 peso bill with my auntie gloria on it
-nothing else much..just ask!

oh no im back! haha. it was fun. i was sick the entire time..btw: love having crazy amazing allergies there. it was good. i have never sneezed so much in my entire life. and the couging and wheezing..yeah put my asthma sticker back up in orange/red hahaha. okay you'll get that if you have an asthma chart that they give you when you get it? yenno? eh whatever only people with real asthma have that. anyways so i was sick and yeah. i got to see my lola, and my aunts and uncles. and for the first time in yeahs all of the brothers and sisters from my dad's side were in the hilippines in one place, well the ones that are alive. all 8 of them. 8 out of 13. i got to really talk to my lola whom i miss a whole lot and all my other aunts and uncles and visit the graves of my grandparents. it was sad. i was sad. and i miss my family there. i love going to the philippines but i hate the pollution and the poverty and the DRIVING. i hate walking through the streets and seeing the poor people. it hurts. its sad. and i feel really helpless. i knows its obvious to say and stuff, but its true. its like this feeling you get in your chest, where your heart just feels like its being twisted and you have to pretend to yawn to hide the tears. its a hard life there. and yeah i am more appreciateve of my family and my life here, but i also got a lot of lessons retaught to me. things that dont matter to you can matter to someone else. things that you dont care about, really. i dont even know how to describe it. this trip really made me want to finish school early or with really good grades so i can make money and send it to my family there. my parents were joking..that next time i'll be paying for the tickets. i want to go back so much. it just feels right when i go. like oh okay im home. i especially like seeing pictures from the old days and stuff. my lola has lots of pictures of her and my lolo. theyre nice black and white. or brown and white. its so hard being there sometimes, i know i wouldnt be able to survive there, but i want to stay there for so long. only 26 days this time. i usually stay for 5 weeks. such a short stay, but it was worth it. and i love my family there. and i would give anything to go back.
when i got home to SFO my love was waiting there at the arrivals gate and i was surprised and happy, but i was like..crap! i havent seen you in a month and i look like..like i just got off a plane from a 16 hour flight!!! hahahaha OMG. but it was okay. then we all went to my house and ate and i gave him his gifts. then we dropped off my other cousins presents. after that we went out to eat with rino, jaena, and chano. then we ALL went to my house and talked and watched SHARK TALE. hahaha i love that movie. and my sister had a baby then i took it in cause my sister passed away..HAHAHAHA. thats it. i have gifts for people! see you guys in school..


BTW: HEY I THOUGHT YOU WERENT SUPPOSED TO WRITE ABOUT MY IN YOUR XANGA. YEAH WE ALL KNOW YOURE HAPPIER NOW, BUT REALLY. EVERY OTHER ENTRY? LETS ALL GET OVER IT. YES GOOD THING YOURE NOT MY FRIEND ANYMORE CAUSE I KEPT YOU DOWN AND YOURE HAPPY NOW. BUT STOP ALREADY. WE'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO DO THAT ANYMORE. I THOUGHT THATS WHAT I SAID. BUT IF I WASNT CLEAR, LET ME RE-ITERATE: NO MENTION AT ALL OF ME OR IMPLICATION OF ME. THANK GOD I HAVE FRIENDS TO TELL ME WHEN YOU WRITE ABOUT ME. SO STOP. REALLY. CAN WE DO THAT NOW?