sigh

i just want it to be over.....school end already....i cant take much more of the school. i have..5 tests left. and i hate my life!!! i have a huge paper due and not enough time to do it. hahahaha. my life i crumbling before my eyes..

you know that...

hhhmm today...i finished my application for UCSF. it'll be okay. i hope they pick me this time..summer school and an internship should be plenty to keep me busy this summer. i think we're also going to las vegas or hawaii again this summer. im so excited. the summer before my senior year will be totally wonderful. if all goes well..i'll have moolah..be getting units done with..and have a gorgeous tan. oh i so cant wait. i also have figured out that i need to lose weight. thats probably why i have this whole dark cloud of low self esteem and feel the need to just shoot myself in the foot and go out with someone who says he doesnt love me or that he doesnt care about me or i never try in relationships. *sigh* guess what..i dont care either.
anyways. i went to church today fun fun fun and i also went to seafood city to go pick up some tilapia. mmmm..tilapia..and i saw hekka people from high school. i was like wow i look like crap. hahaha. but we talked while i was waiting for the tilapia and i remembered what it was like to be in high school again...haha..hella akward talking to people..hahah but we'd better hang out this weekend you big jerk. you know who you are. hahaha. oh yeah i never see you blah blah. yenno peopl like that..then are like lets exchange nubmers and we'll hang out..hahaha..we'll see..im kinda busy doing nothing this weekend. uh whate else. i watched tv and have no one to talk to because greg is not a very nice person. ever. to me. ever. at all.




you know that youre a horrible boyfriend if you:
1. go out to clubs and bars and parties and lie to your girlfriend about them, and then when she does find out try to defend yourself with "i knew youd get mad"...
2. go to parties without your girlfriend even though you said you wouldnt and that you didnt even want to..then put your gay pictures of you and your other gay partner best friend on your my space for all of her friends to see...can't you be straight for like..4 seconds?
3. only have the word whatever in your vocabulary
4. have the initials g.d.p.
5. have cheated on your girlfriend and use the excuse that you were drunk so therefore it does not matter...
6. are my boyfriend..who really shouldnt even be my boyfriend.

easter break

so im home for easter. so far its been hell on earth. im bored out of my mind and i cant stop sleeping and eating. ive gained 5 pounds from the last tiem i was at home and i have gained like..2 inches across my entire body except height wise. hahaha. fatty mcfatterson...um. i went to church today to listen to the stations of the cross. and yeah. i dont think im gonna go to church tonight. i dont feel like it too much. but my family will probably make me go because they love the mass. hahaha. but like its gonna be the veneration of the cross. and everyone had to go up and kiss the cross. first of all..what if other peopl are sick? or what if someone has like..some other contagious disease? we're all gonna get it. we used to just put flowers on the cross..but..not anymore. i have a huge paper due on wednesday..but i'm probably gonna do it one tuesday. or monday. i really dont have anything to do. i dont think im gonna do the dance show anymore. i dont really have time and its so much money i dont think i can afford it..especially since my mother found out about the dance card. im screwed. plus am i really a dancer? no. not really. but oh well. anyways. i have no idea what to do for easter. i'll probably go home to my apartment early. and not do anything. woot.i think i may have to leave my car here...oh well...cause my dad got into a car accident and they only have one car now. so i'll give them mine. it'll be okay.