which way now?

i have no idea which way to go now..but all i know is..its exciting and scary and random and i think i can do it. im so filled with wonder and questions. its kinda funny.

you make me happy when i feel too much. and when my hands are cold, you warm them up, and i'm not worried when you're not around, but i heard symphonies.. i love this song. its so happy.

talked long and hard with matt. i think we've made progress.

bought more shoes and a shirt that says im kinda a big deal..im so crazy...its cause i got a new credit card and deposited my check from my wonderful world of tutoring. i love tax-free money...

i have all these picutres that i must get developed...haha i'll be at wal-mart for an hour tomorrow..hopefully they didnt get over exposed..cause theyre about 6 months old and have been in the sun..hopefully..

so so tired. still so so much work to do.

according to matt..i should live for myself to be happy..don't settle for anything that doesnt make me happy most of the time..and i will make it and be happy at the same time. so wise...

After consultation with the academic leadership and the faculty, we have changed the dates for the end of the Spring 2007 semester.
Please note the semester will end one week earlier than listed on the Intranet, Internet, and in the Catalog.

Last day of classes (except credential)
Tue 5/1/2007 8:00 AM-10:00 PM

Study Day (credential programs excluded)
Tue 5/1/2007 8:00 AM-10:00 PM

Final Examinations
Thu 5/3/2007 Wed 5/9/2007

Last day of semester (except credential)
Wed 5/9/2007 8:00 AM-10:00 PM

Commencement Rehearsal
Thu 5/10/2007 9:00 AM-11:30 AM

Baccalaureate Mass
Fri 5/11/2007 3:00 PM-4:00 PM

Commencement - date changed from 5/19
Sat 5/12/2007 10:30 AM-1:00 PM

I GRADUATE A WEEK EARLY..THATS RIGHT BITCHES...A WEEK EARLY..

tired

i am so tired because i...
..did not get any sleep last night..
..had a long boring embarassing day..
..am over worked and over stressed..
..all of the above..

today was stupid. our presentation was okay..embarassing at best. they made us sing karaoke. i really think i have a future in embarassing myself. almost saw randy today, damnit..haha he doesnt work late. ate pizza..duh. i dont know. im so all over the place. i need to take a nap...

P.S.
talk about your spur of the moment....
GUESS WHO'S HAIR IS CUT..STREAKED SUPER BRIGHT RED AND IS TINTED PURPLE???
two guesses..

its one of those

you can't quite put your finger on it. its that feeling...doom is what books call it. that taste in your mouth that you cant get out, no matter how many apple juices you drink. its that feeling in the pit of your very soul, when you stand on that edge of that cliff in your mind, overlooking that huge void you've always meant to fill in with something, but you've always been too busy or distracted to do anything about it. and now you're there. what do you do?
you sit and listent to some sad songs and wait for that feeling..impending doom..to wash over you and let the tears fall, yenno?
well im at that point, a cross roads if you will. and i dont know a think to do about it. i think i just did one thing, but deep inside, i think it was nothing cause it'll get better in like..3 days ro something, and some part of you wants it to be like that, and some part thinks its time, and some part of you wants to bash that part in with a crow bar.
i guess im at that age. but its not fair, im so young. why do i have to choose my life now? now of all times, when the world is just opening up to me, why do i need to care about anything else but turning 21. instead i have this...rock..whats the story about the guy pushing that huge boulder up the hill over and over again? i feel like that too, like everything i do is futile because it will always come rolling back down the damn hill right back to where i started...
i need a vacation...i need some idrection that i havent taken already...save me..again..

HIGH-larious...

so katie and i are pretty much the funniest people on the face of the entire planet when it comes to med-surg. hahahaha. so our advanced med-surg class is pretty dang interesting..yeah right. so we always sit near the front, and answer all the questions, no matter if we know the answers or not..hahah..and we're just funny..so today we're talking about cadriomyopathies and dysrhythmias and stuff and acute MI's...and one of the etiologies of an AMI (acute myocardial infarction) is blunt trauma..and im like..how does blunt trauma cause an MI? and katies like..well if you're gonna take a bat to the chest im pretty sure your hearts not gonna work or something like if you're gonna take a bat to the heart i'm pretty sure its gonna cause some cell death. something hella funny like that. and OMG it was so funny, i swear olivia hates us for that. olivia's our lecture professor..then we were talking about how women have cardiac symptoms different than men do, like we would have epigastric pain and nausea, etc. and i was like..hhhmmm, i feel nauseated, i may be pregnant..or having a heart attack.. ahahaha. you really just have to see our faces and hear my voice saying it. its real funny. trust me. nursing is probably the most humorus major there is...

finally got my tutoring schedule down..hopefully..cheer tuesdays and wednesdays..dance mondays and thursdays..and tutoring on wednesdays and fridays..its a plan? yeah..maybe a little hectic..but i love keeping busy..i'll do it...i have to

my horoscope...

Your craving for emotional security is answered as your personal situation stabilizes. One troublesome conundrum after another gets settled in your favor. Just keep clear of unnecessary drama, and you'll be home free.

i wonder what this means. im so lazy. come visit me everyone. my apartment is better than krystle's..(shoot. i hope she doesnt read this...)