i like this song...

I wait for the postman to bring me a letter

I wait for the good

Lord to make me feel better

And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders

A family in crisis that only grows older

Why'd you have to go

Why'd you have to go

Why'd you have to go

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I am broken but I am hoping

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I am crying, a part of me is dying and

These are, these are

The confessions of a broken heart

And I wear all your old clothes, your polo sweater

I dream of another you

The one who would never (never)

Leave me alone to pick up the pieces

A daddy to hold me, that's what I needed

So why'd you have to go

Why'd you have to go

Why'd you have to go!!

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I don't know you, but I still want to

Daughter to father, daughter to father

Tell me the truth, did you ever love me

Cause these are, these are

The confessions of a broken heart

I love you, I love youI love you

I....!!!!!I love you!!

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I don't know you, but I still want to

Daughter to father, daughter to father

Tell me the truth...Did you ever love me!!!?

Did you ever love me?

These are.....

The confessions...of a broken heart

Ohhh....yeah

I wait for the postman to bring me a letter..

i love phil

i love phil. and i dont care who knows it. well i do, but everyone pretty much does know about it anyways. but don't tell greg, he may get mad, he may not. but its okay cause i love them both.

today i got a hair cut. SUPER SHORT. like 6 inches off, and a whole lot of weight. my hair is now super thin and super straight, and i want it to grow out already. i look like a ranomd super asian girl from korea or japan. like a harajuku girl haircut or something. i can barely tie it in a pony tail. i have no idea what that lady was thinking. think ashlee simpson when she first came out with pieces of me, without the crazy bang thang going on. thats the last time i ever let a lady with hair that is 5 different colors and the craziest cut ever, touch my hair. lesson learned.

had chinese food at libay's house to celebrate. tomorrow im going to manteca to go visit beets and go swimming. its supposed to be 95 degrees there. but it'll be okay cause her pool is NOT heated. um. yeah. baby sitting ethan tomorrow at 7am. that'll be fun. i love him to pieces. i want one. but not now, and i dont know if i want it to actually be mine...

i know that my hair is soft and shiney and so straight, but it is sssoo short. so i bought a straightener and i made a vow to never cut my hair again. ive been so used to having my hair so long and thick that i can't even believe that this is all that i have left. she cut off so much, i may as well have donated it. like 7 inches. i know i said 6 inches, but its layered so, some parts are off 7 inches. and i have to wait months for it to grow out. i am never cutting my hair again. only trimming. and maybe not even that if my hair still looks good. cause yenno, i trim but like 5 inches. im so sad. wont someone make me feel better? like perhaps a call from my boyfriend? channing tatum or tatum channing? i can't really remember which way it goes, but he is one hot mother. haha not really a mother, but a dancing soccer player. i love dancing. and any guy that can dance like he does has to power to make me drop greg like a hot tamale. haha just kidding. only phil can do that *wink*wink* hahaha. (just kidding) (or am i?)

on friday i picking up tepe at the airport with the gang, jaena, jackie, and mary ann. we're going to eat at china station, then get tapioca and more chicken, then go to bounce-a-rama, then go to camping. i cant wait to be super dark. then we get back on sunday, and off to seattle, 12 hour trip with tepe. wow. that gonna suck. or will it be super fun? i dunno. and you all know i will be spending a week with her in seattle, lookg for an apartment and furniture and stuff. and finally, i will be back home on the 16th. and on the 17th or 18th i have a lunch or dinner date. yes. score. my summer is practucally over. so-long summer, hello SENIOR YEAR OF NURSING SCHOOL!!!