unproductive
im so unproductive today that i'm blogging..haha...
today i had class..a midterm actually in religion. it was okay. i hope i get an okay grade, i actually don't care too much. im over school. nothing will help my GPA..since they only freaking count 7 semesters... so therefor i will not try anymore...
i hung out with rob at starbucks..it was stupid. then we went to campus to go to the library and i tutored while he went on the computers. haha then i bothered him and we did the nclex practice tests together. i think too much..way too much..
then i went home and downloaded music. it was fun. and thats what ive been doing for the past hours. i feel firmly in the fact that i will keep my self so busy that i wont feel the need or the urge or the necessity to call greg. its this new relaxation thing that i'm trying..it's actually me trying to complete myself because i apparently am not a whole person. so to complete myself i need to not be dependent on talking to him or caring whether he calls me...essentially i need my own life that does not revolve around him is what he tells me. so i'm planning on going to gym tonight.
also, i am very fat. i have gaine 6 pounds and i am a huge heifer and cannot even fit into the baggiest of sweats. i had to buy new sweats cause my old ones did not fit me. i am a big fat fatty...i need to go on a diet. a huge diet. cause i am so fat. or i should just get fat and have surgery..that would be so much easier..
i should be reading NCLEX and ATI, but i'm so unmotivated...i suck. i really hate school because i can't even get a medal for honors cause they only count 7 semesters..i hate school..school should die...
also, tomorrow i'm meeting with my preceptor for PCRC. i'm really excited and i cannot wait to start clinicals. hopefully i can start this weekend. i have NOTHING to do during spring break basically anyways. but i do have a lunch date planned on saturday with my love (guess who!!!!!). hahaha i havent seen him in so long. this will be fun. i wonder where we will eat. hahahaha. this means i probably will need to take a shower..hahah probably more than a shower. again, i am so fat that i have no desire to look good because i am fat and ugly and a huge huge cow...
*sigh* oh well...life goes on...as i get wider and softer...
today i had class..a midterm actually in religion. it was okay. i hope i get an okay grade, i actually don't care too much. im over school. nothing will help my GPA..since they only freaking count 7 semesters... so therefor i will not try anymore...
i hung out with rob at starbucks..it was stupid. then we went to campus to go to the library and i tutored while he went on the computers. haha then i bothered him and we did the nclex practice tests together. i think too much..way too much..
then i went home and downloaded music. it was fun. and thats what ive been doing for the past hours. i feel firmly in the fact that i will keep my self so busy that i wont feel the need or the urge or the necessity to call greg. its this new relaxation thing that i'm trying..it's actually me trying to complete myself because i apparently am not a whole person. so to complete myself i need to not be dependent on talking to him or caring whether he calls me...essentially i need my own life that does not revolve around him is what he tells me. so i'm planning on going to gym tonight.
also, i am very fat. i have gaine 6 pounds and i am a huge heifer and cannot even fit into the baggiest of sweats. i had to buy new sweats cause my old ones did not fit me. i am a big fat fatty...i need to go on a diet. a huge diet. cause i am so fat. or i should just get fat and have surgery..that would be so much easier..
i should be reading NCLEX and ATI, but i'm so unmotivated...i suck. i really hate school because i can't even get a medal for honors cause they only count 7 semesters..i hate school..school should die...
also, tomorrow i'm meeting with my preceptor for PCRC. i'm really excited and i cannot wait to start clinicals. hopefully i can start this weekend. i have NOTHING to do during spring break basically anyways. but i do have a lunch date planned on saturday with my love (guess who!!!!!). hahaha i havent seen him in so long. this will be fun. i wonder where we will eat. hahahaha. this means i probably will need to take a shower..hahah probably more than a shower. again, i am so fat that i have no desire to look good because i am fat and ugly and a huge huge cow...
*sigh* oh well...life goes on...as i get wider and softer...
