Wednesday, September 08, 2004

Wednesday morning at five o'clock as the day begings
Silently closing her bedroom door
Leaving the note that she hoped would say more
She goes downstairs to the kitchen clutching her hankerchief
Quietly turing the backdoor key
Stepping outside she is free.
She (We gave her most of our lives) is leaving
(Sacraficed most of our lives) home
(We gave her everything money could buy)
She's leaving home after living alone
For so many years. Bye, bye
Father snores as his wife gets into her dressing gown
Picks up the letter that's lying there
Standing alone at the top of the stairs
She breaks down and cries to her husband
Daddy our baby's gone.
Why would she treat us so thoughtlessly
How could she do this to me.
She (We never though of ourselves)
Is leaving (Never a thought for ourselves)home
(We struggled hard all our lives to get by)
She's leaving home after living alone
For so many years. Bye, bye
Friday morning at nine o'clock she is far away
Waiting to keep the appointment she made
Meeting a man from the motor trade.
She What did we do that was wrong
Is having (We didn't know it was wrong)
Fun (Fun is the one thing that money can't buy)
Something inside that was always denied
For so many years. Bye, Bye
She's leaving home bye bye

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

*sob* my big sister is leaving for Texas and then Washington D.C. and i'm sad. i was a wreck driving home to school. i crtied and cried and cried. remembering all the good times and the bad. all the memories of us playing in the park at shc beach at school with our cousins and stuff. CAMPING camping too. *sigh* and now its all gone. im so sad..really i am..

Wednesday morning at five o'clock as the day begins
Silently closing her bedroom door
Leaving the note that she hoped would say more
She goes downstairs to the kitchen clutching her handkerchief
Quietly turning the backdoor key
Steppping outside she is free
She (We gave her most of our lives)
Is leaving (Sacrificed most of our lives)
Home (We gave her everything money could buy)
She's leaving home after living alone
For so many years.
Bye, bye
Father snores as his wife gets into her dressing gown
Picks up the letter that's lying there
Standing alone at the top of the stairs
She breaks down and cries to her husband
Daddy, our baby's gone
Why could she treat us so thoughtlessly
Why could she do this to me
She (We never thought for ourselves)
Is leaving (Never a thought for ourselves)
Home (We struggled hard all our lives to get by)
She's leaving home after living alone
For so many years.
Bye, bye
Friday morning at nine o'clock she is far away
Waiting to keep the appointment she made
Meeting a man from the motor trade
She (What did we do was wrong)
Is having (We didn't know it was wrong)
Fun (Fun is the one thing that money can't buy)
Something inside was laways deniedFor so many years.
Bye, bye
She's leaving home bye, bye

*sob* so my big sister is leaving for texas tomorrow, then to washington a week after to leave me for 4 years. and im a wreck. i left my home crying a bawling the entire way to school. i should have stayed longer, but i had to leave or id cry right there. but yeah. i said goodbye. and walked out the door and cried. i cried like ive never cried before. (except for when my cat died. it was so sad. i was so sad. i was remembering all the fights the good times, and the bads times. and all the fun memories at the beach and the park and camping and playing and eating and all that good. stuff. my sister and i have a very different relationship than most sisters. we're..i dunno. weird. but we get along sometimes. a lot more not that we live away. but i'm still gonna miss her, just because i know shes not just 20 miles away in SF. i'm so sad. i was sobbing on the phone to gregory. he felt so bad, and i couldnt blame him. im such a sap. but i know i'll miss my sister even though i wont say it and i guess i l-l-lo-ve her too. man.. i dont think i have ever said that about her. but its just a given. our relationship is so different. i dunno. we just know. *sigh* shes leaving home.

Wednesday morning at five o'clock as the day begings
Silently closing her bedroom door
Leaving the note that she hoped would say more
She goes downstairs to the kitchen clutching her hankerchief
Quietly turing the backdoor key
Stepping outside she is free.
She (We gave her most of our lives) is leaving
(Sacraficed most of our lives) home
(We gave her everything money could buy)
She's leaving home after living alone
For so many years.
Bye, bye
Father snores as his wife gets into her dressing gown
Picks up the letter that's lying there
Standing alone at the top of the stairs
She breaks down and cries to her husband
Daddy our baby's gone.
Why would she treat us so thoughtlessly
How could she do this to me.
She (We never though of ourselves)
Is leaving (Never a thought for ourselves) home
(We struggled hard all our lives to get by)
She's leaving home after living alone
For so many years (Bye, bye)
Friday morning at nine o'clock she is far away
Waiting to keep the appointment she made
Meeting a man from the motor trade.
She (What did we do that was wrong)
Is having (We didn't know it was wrong)
Fun (Fun is the one thing that money can't buy)
Something inside that was always denied
For so many years (Bye, Bye)
She's leaving home (Bye bye)

Monday, September 06, 2004

*sigh* it was great. i went to mo's and i VENTED!! and when i say VENTED i mean VENTED!! such a long long weekend. *sigh* i cried and cried and yelled and just sobbed. it was great. im so sick and tired of school already. and mo knows what i mean.
i hekka just wanna get away. so badly. its so sad.
tomorrow im going home. i cant wait. my sister is leaving. ive cried too much in the last weekend. and i know im gonna cry when my sister leaves. even though shes only going to texas and washington DC and i can visit her whenever i want to because i'll be able to go by myself wherever i want whenever i want. i hate EVERYTHING. stupid crap. argh
and dont even ask me whats wrong cause im not gonna tell you. unless you want me to kick your butt. my knee hurts. bye
so it was a nice weekend until..i messed it up..whatever..
anyways..today was frikkin hot. at like 4 pm it was 100 degrees. hekka hot.
tomorrow my sister is going to be back form hawaii. then wed. shes gonna go to texas. then from texas shes going to washington DC. so tomorrow after school im gonna drive home. yeah. so my week is gonna be crazy. i have 2 quizzes, a test, 1 SOAP note due, and other things. but yeah. took a nice cold shower for about an hour. it was nice.
but yeah i started hekka crying in the shower. it was sad. oh well. i was just frustrated today and hot and overwhelmed and angry and tired and hot and did i mention hot. i didnt get anything done this weekend. such a pain in the ass. then i got out and went to my room and i started rubbing my eyes. and i hekka couldnt stop crying. and my eyes were getting really irritated. and so i dabbed the end of my face towel in hot water and dabbed my eyes. and there was blood. i either was crying so hard that i started crying blood or my eyes got cut or i irritated my eyes and they started to bleed or i dunno. but that made me cry more. and i just sat on the counter of my sink crying and dabbing the blood fro my eyes. now one of my eyes is really irritated and swollen cause rubbing and crying and bleeding. blood for heavens sake. i was crying blood. anywas. very unprodictuve weekend. i kinda wish i could take it back. but oh well. alls well that ends CRAPPY.
i hate and am tired of this heat. i'm tired of people. i'm tired of a lot of stuff. i'm tired of saying i do eat i swear, or nothing's wrong. for once. for one goddamn time just TAKE MY WORD FOR IT...