oh no im back! haha. it was fun. i was sick the entire time..btw: love having crazy amazing allergies there. it was good. i have never sneezed so much in my entire life. and the couging and wheezing..yeah put my asthma sticker back up in orange/red hahaha. okay you'll get that if you have an asthma chart that they give you when you get it? yenno? eh whatever only people with real asthma have that. anyways so i was sick and yeah. i got to see my lola, and my aunts and uncles. and for the first time in yeahs all of the brothers and sisters from my dad's side were in the hilippines in one place, well the ones that are alive. all 8 of them. 8 out of 13. i got to really talk to my lola whom i miss a whole lot and all my other aunts and uncles and visit the graves of my grandparents. it was sad. i was sad. and i miss my family there. i love going to the philippines but i hate the pollution and the poverty and the DRIVING. i hate walking through the streets and seeing the poor people. it hurts. its sad. and i feel really helpless. i knows its obvious to say and stuff, but its true. its like this feeling you get in your chest, where your heart just feels like its being twisted and you have to pretend to yawn to hide the tears. its a hard life there. and yeah i am more appreciateve of my family and my life here, but i also got a lot of lessons retaught to me. things that dont matter to you can matter to someone else. things that you dont care about, really. i dont even know how to describe it. this trip really made me want to finish school early or with really good grades so i can make money and send it to my family there. my parents were joking..that next time i'll be paying for the tickets. i want to go back so much. it just feels right when i go. like oh okay im home. i especially like seeing pictures from the old days and stuff. my lola has lots of pictures of her and my lolo. theyre nice black and white. or brown and white. its so hard being there sometimes, i know i wouldnt be able to survive there, but i want to stay there for so long. only 26 days this time. i usually stay for 5 weeks. such a short stay, but it was worth it. and i love my family there. and i would give anything to go back.
when i got home to SFO my love was waiting there at the arrivals gate and i was surprised and happy, but i was like..crap! i havent seen you in a month and i look like..like i just got off a plane from a 16 hour flight!!! hahahaha OMG. but it was okay. then we all went to my house and ate and i gave him his gifts. then we dropped off my other cousins presents. after that we went out to eat with rino, jaena, and chano. then we ALL went to my house and talked and watched SHARK TALE. hahaha i love that movie. and my sister had a baby then i took it in cause my sister passed away..HAHAHAHA. thats it. i have gifts for people! see you guys in school..


BTW: HEY I THOUGHT YOU WERENT SUPPOSED TO WRITE ABOUT MY IN YOUR XANGA. YEAH WE ALL KNOW YOURE HAPPIER NOW, BUT REALLY. EVERY OTHER ENTRY? LETS ALL GET OVER IT. YES GOOD THING YOURE NOT MY FRIEND ANYMORE CAUSE I KEPT YOU DOWN AND YOURE HAPPY NOW. BUT STOP ALREADY. WE'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO DO THAT ANYMORE. I THOUGHT THATS WHAT I SAID. BUT IF I WASNT CLEAR, LET ME RE-ITERATE: NO MENTION AT ALL OF ME OR IMPLICATION OF ME. THANK GOD I HAVE FRIENDS TO TELL ME WHEN YOU WRITE ABOUT ME. SO STOP. REALLY. CAN WE DO THAT NOW?