maslow

Abraham Maslow (1954) attempted to synthesize a large body of research related to human motivation. Prior to Maslow, researchers generally focused separately on such factors as biology, achievement, or power to explain what energizes, directs, and sustains human behavior. Maslow posited a hierarchy of human needs based on two groupings: deficiency needs and growth needs. Within the deficiency needs, each lower need must be met before moving to the next higher level. Once each of these needs has been satisfied, if at some future time a deficiency is detected, the individual will act to remove the deficiency.

1) Physiological: hunger, thirst, bodily comforts, etc.;
2) Safety/security: out of danger;
3) Belonginess and Love: affiliate with others, be accepted; and
4) Esteem: to achieve, be competent, gain approval and recognition
5) Cognitive: to know, to understand, and explore;
6) Aesthetic: symmetry, order, and beauty;
7) Self-actualization: to find self-fulfillment and realize one's potential; and
8) Self-transcendence: to connect to something beyond the ego or to help others find self-fulfillment and realize their potential.

i used to have numbers 1-7, but i got kicked down to number 2. i have most of my physiological needs met, except huger and thirst, but if you dont feel them, then you don't really need them, right? you can't progress from one without fulfilling the others. so i'm kinda stuck at number 2 until i heal and learn to love myself again or become social again or just kinda interact with anyone who isn't a co-worker.

i get it everyone. everyone knows. greg broke up with me finally blah blah. and i know my friends read this. so guys, really. don;t ask me about it. you know how much i'm hurting. you know how much im dying inside, you know how much this is killing me inside. dont ask, just know that i can't keep repeating over and over again what i did wrong and how it happened and i can't keep crying, i just can't. i don't need anyone else to tell me they saw it coming, i dont need anyone else to tell me it was my fault, i dont need people to say im better off or that things will get better because im not there yet. i'm not quite at that point where i can do that. so dont. you know, you already know. just dont okay? please..please..

i went crying to my dad today, i just cried to him. im hurting so bad. so so so bad. please, just don't. dont ask me to go out clubbing or drinking or to parties. its too early and i feel like it would be disrespectful to my own grief if i tried to forget right now, especially since i havent had 2 days in a row that i haven't cried. just, GOD LET ME BE SAD BY MYSELF. maybe next time. i'm not a guy. i can't cut him out of my life like he has with me. in the end i still loved him, he didn't love me. i dont care if you know hes going out i dont care if you know hes dating or fucking or freakin or drinking with other girls. i just dont want to hear it. hes over it im not, leave it be...