today was..interesting..well i woke up and maryann didnt go to school cause she had surgery..and then i cleaned a little so i could go on the picnic with the club and the guys and yeah..so tiffany picked me up at lik..12:30 even though we were supposed at the ta's house at 12:30..but before that i wasnt feeling the picnic..my eyes kept sweating and excreting water..it was weird..it was kinda like i was crying..but not really..but yeah i was..then tiff came and i wiped my tears away like a big girl..and we left..i brought clam chowder for krystle and anh cause he asked for some and krystle..you know krystle and her clam chowder..then we were inside and i went back into the garage at the ta's house and i walked out and was saying stuff and i cried and i sat on the couch and everyone was like aww whats wrong..but whatever..i kinda told them..and there was the hugging i love them..my friends..theyre the greatest..and then i walked outside to get seom fresh air before we left and i was hekka crying again..and tiffany came up from behind me and was like whats wrong..and i told her..and i was HELLA crying..and i just kinda had a mini break down..but dont worry..it was worse last night..i couldnt even open my eyes this morning..but yeah then we had the picnic..it was so much fun..it was great..it was just what i needed..we ate and made fun of nicole and made krystle run in the grass hahaha..she likes that..yenno..the grass..and i got grass stains on my knees cause we were doing cartwheels and such and everything..cause we were doing the rosemary backroll..haha its so cool..and yeah then at like 330 we went to kumon so tiff and krystle could get jobs..and then they said they had to take a test so we went back to the ta's and waited..kinda napped..kinda kicked people..haha..then we went back to cal state to pick up their other brother...and we came back and tiff and krystle were on their way back..and then i left..but yeah..that was my day..and i completely needed it..now im kinda sick..well i have been..but today was the first day i really needed to take my inhaler..yenno when you can feel your chest getting tight cause it hurts cause you're sick..and the whole sweating from my eyes deal doesnt help..it kinda just makes it worse..wow..i was hoping not to have to go to the emergency room this summer..but i feel like i will be doing a lot of crying and coughing and inhaling the inhaler..which if you have asthma..you hate taking..cause if you take it enough then you have to take the machine..and that hurts and makes you hyper and cry cause you shake but you can breathe..but whats the exchange in that? i had to set it up in my room again today when i took a nap cause i keep sleeping on my back and i cant breathe..but dont tell my mom or dad..they thought the sound was my fan..i dont wanna go to the doctor..they always do the same thing..and im like..i know whats wrong..so blah..and yeah..so then when i got home i took a nap and then i woke up and here i am..so..I DONT CARE ANYMORE..